Help

I need very serious help.
If someone can help me to get over my hard time.
I am very very thank you for help through hard time.

My fault

All is my mistake why none tell me to do that. I made a choice by myself.
I can not say there is someone's fault.
It is all one me.

nice family

I have very nice family...great kids....lovely wife...
Only one thing is not good is me.
Becuase I play stock and loss a lot of money, they can not have good life.
All because me doing to wrong things.

My Life is Good????

Compare to other people, my life is good.
Why? I am dip a big hole and face me to jump in.
What is wrong with me......any virus in my mind...who control my mind....
Should I stop my mind to run....
Too mnay questions why I can not make life easy.
why why why???

Kids

Why do you want to have kids? To have fun.
Nop, kids is not fun and you need to spend time to take care them.
Not just have kid and you can't dump them on the street.
You need to make a good life for them.

What is the best way?

If I try to end of the life. What is the best way to do that?
Any suggestion?

No where to go

I think I am going to the end of road. No where to turn. Just keep going to the end of road.
I feel so sad but If I go other people will happy why not.